I Hurt

Recovery is not going well. Had my follow-up appointment but didn't get my drains removed. Apparently they just aren't ready to come out. ugh. I have 270 stitches from hip to hip that pull like a bitch. I can barely walk, let alone sit here at this computer for more than a few minutes. I've been in bed pretty much ever since I got home from the hospital last Friday. Today was the worst day. Along with the constant pain, I had a terrible bout of nausea. Fun times. Maybe some sort of infection? Who knows.. pardon me while I go back to my bed and be miserable. I miss you.

Recovering

Surgery went well. No complications to speak of, just the irritations of healing now. My follow-up appointment with my surgeon is Wednesday, so hopefully I'll get these drains removed. I spent the day and evening before surgery with some friends and had a blast. Yeah, we drank a bit too much. Went to a couple clubs then ended up back at Kelvin's house. Good times.

mcd

The hardest thing is to let go
But its not defeat
When you set somebody free
And I know you're meant to be yourself
With someone else, not me

Just Passing Time

Longest real relationship? 4 years
How many boyfriends have told you they love you? 6
Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? yes
Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? no
Are you happier single or in a relationship? relationship
Have you ever been cheated on? yes
Have you ever broken someone's heart? not that I know of
Talk to your exes? a couple of them
If you could go back in time would you change things with an ex? no, it's made me who I am today
Do you believe that you are a good girlfriend? I think so
Have you dated people who weren't good to you? yes
Have you ever dated someone older than you? Yes
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Depends on the situation
Believe in love at first sight? used to
Ever dated two people at once? yes
Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend? nope
Is heartbreak really as bad as it sounds? unfortunately
Are you looking for a boyfriend or girlfriend? nope, I know who I'd like to be with
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no

What did I do?

Oh good grief! I have never been so drunk in my life as I was last night. I went to a club to watch a few bands that I love, and well... that's about all I remember. My friends told me that I made some phone calls, which is nothing new, and that the bartender cut me off before the first band was even finished. So uh... what the hell did I do all night? I know I took a few pictures, because they were in my camera, but I can honestly say I don't remember taking them. I don't know how I got home, but I do know I didn't drive, because when I woke up my car wasn't here at home. Luckily the club is in walking distance from my house so I walked over there to find it. So if anyone has any insight to what transpired last night, please let me know!

Tired

Ever just looked in the mirror and stared at your face? I did that today, not realizing what I would emotionally feel like after. When the first tear fell down my cheek, I couldn't help but look at the circles under my eyes. I look old. I feel old. I see the gray hair surrounding my face, and the wrinkles around my eyes and mouth. Next month I'll be 35 years old. I have no children and am not married, nor do I have any plans of marriage...not by choice though. I want to get married and have a family, but I'm tired of waiting for that perfect guy to see the real me and and ask. I feel like I have not accomplished a thing in this life. Sure I have a few close friends, but none are local. So when I need to talk to someone, it has to be over the phone. It would be nice to just hug a friend when needed, which seems to be frequent lately. Today was not a good day for me. When my thoughts run rampant, more depressing things come to light. Thoughts I would just love to rip from my heart and brain. I'm so tired. I'm so tired I would love to just lay down and die and be done with it all.

Um, Yeah

Intervention

Lately I've had many people telling me that I am losing control. Personally, I don't see it. My friend Joe called me today and chewed my ass. But something he said to me really hit hard. "It's hard to care for others when you don't care for yourself Sally, and at the moment you seem to be on a path of self destruction." Do people really see me this way? He even went as far as telling me I'm an alcoholic. He said that even though I don't drink that often, when I do I don't know when to stop. That stings. He's worried about me, so I promised him I would work on it. But it's sooo damn hard when you live a lonely life. Sometimes it helps to just lose control and forget for awhile.

Preceded by 34 Bad Years

May fucking sucks. My mind is going a million miles a minute and I can't collect my thoughts. So much has happened, but I'll only pinpoint a few of the details. My plastic surgery is coming up soon and I'm scared. Being sliced open from hip to hip is not something I'm looking forward to. The recovery will be terrible, and there is no one to take care of me. Yeah, I'm a baby and I want my mommy. And of course there is always the fear of not making it. Not really a fear to me, cause right now getting the dirt sleep sounds nice. But my mom... she has been through too much and if something happened to me it would devastate her. Secondly, I'm an emotional basketcase. Should I take what is right in front of me and settle for something I don't want, or opt to be alone? He wants me, but I want someone else. Not fair to any of us, but I'm the one who ends up crying every night thinking about "what might have been." Please, someone take my damn heart out of me. And to top it all off, May 27 is the anniversary of my sisters death. It will be 3 years. Seems like yesterday my dad told me the news. Seems like yesterday when I walked into her room where she lay and kissed her on the forehead before she was moved. Seems like yesterday we were having out sisterly spats. Seems like yesterday she was calling me a "tardo." It just seems like yesterday. I miss her sooo fucking much I just can't deal with it. The stupid things she would do are burned in my mind. Like when she would come over and look in my closets saying "do you have anything I can have?" I can't even type about her without the tears running down my face. Why was she taken from me? Why do I have to grow old without my big sister? Just fucking WHY???

I Just Wanna Scream

Why can't I just wake up from this nightmare? God please help me.

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

100 Proof

Tuesday night I went to a party at my friend Keith's house. After a couple mixed drinks of pure alcohol and too many shots of Tequila and Hot Damn 100 I was out of it. Unfortunately I remember everything, all the texts and phone calls I made. I apologize to those of you that received something stupid from me. Yeah, I get kind of emotional and want to tell people my feelings. I called my buddy Joe and he ventured on over and partook in some of the Tequila with me. When I was ready to leave I wandered out to my car, but was quickly cut off by Brooke, who wasn't about to let me leave. So they dragged my ass back in the house and made me sit for awhile. Probably a good idea considering I would have went to jail had I been pulled over. Interesting night, even better party. Anywho, I leave you with a picture of myself and my talented musician friend Joe Young.

Perfection Unveiled

You. The perfect guy. You deserve happiness and all that goes along with it. I hope you find what you are looking for, I really do. It hurts me to see you so sad. We are more alike than you think. The words you say are exactly my thoughts. It's funny how just a simple chat with you can make me smile, even when I don't want to. I love how I can talk to you about anything, and I know you won't judge me. I don't feel so lonely when I talk to you, even though I live a life of loneliness. I'm sad.... for many reasons. I'm sure you know why, and it's ok. I understand your situation, really. I don't blame you for pursuing your dream; I'd do the same thing. But the funny thing is that my dream is unattainable now. You know.. those simple things. I shouldn't have gave up 10 years ago. I regret that everyday. Whatever happens I will always be here for you, no matter what. You are special, important, perfect. My good friend. Not really how I wanted to see you, but how it ended up. My friend. I love you more than you will ever realize. I don't want to lose you again.
This is what I'll be doing tonight to forget.

Extreme Blah

This has so NOT been a good day. First of all, every muscle and bone in my body hurts, and I have no idea why. I've just wanted to lay in bed all day with someone holding me like a damn baby. Problem there is that I was completely alone. Ugh. And tonight I fought for several hours with Lee. NOT good. We both said some awful things to each other, more on my part, and now I'm pretty sure he hates me. This is definitely not how I planned my day to go.

Typical Friday Night

Give Me Some Truth

Earlier tonight I ran in to a friend, and the first thing he said to me was "Oh my God, you are just gorgeous!" That's nice enough I guess. But then the wheels started turning and I analyzed it, as I do everything. So I wonder which is worse... last year when people would state the truth about me being a "fat ass" or now when people lie to me about being beautiful when it's clearly not true?

Yeah, OK

My mom thought it would be funny to take a picture of me when I fell asleep in my old bed at her house. She's funny like that.

Moment of Clarity

My friend Haven called me tonight because she knew something was wrong. I had been crying, bawling like a baby really, about my life. I was out wandering, driving to nowhere, basically trying to find the void. I told her what I wanted out of life: love, family, stability. I want someone to give me roses on Valentine's day. Someone to call just because they were thinking about me. We talked about someone in my life that I care about very much, and how I felt about him. She told me I should talk to him about it. I should tell him MY thoughts, without expecting him to return the favor. That way it would just put me on the spot, not him. What's the worst that could happen she asked? Devastation. I guess the best thing is to go on pretending. Why does it have to be so damn hard?

Chadwick Chronicles

10 years ago I met someone very cool. We spent some time together which was great, but somehow it drifted away. I've thought about him often during the past decade, but never reached out to find him. Until a few months ago anyway. Found him online and had a good conversation with him. Talked about life, death, love.. the basics. I missed those conversations we had. The problem... 200 miles apart. Today I went and spent the day with him, and it was great. Same Chad I always knew I liked. Smart, fun and hot as hell. Am I attracted to him? Oh yeah, definitely. So now the question is do I move on this? Will he return the affection? Honestly I don't know. It sucks to know you've found someone perfect and there's nothing you can do about it. But I wouldn't give up the friendship for anything.

Krispy Kreme is the Devil

But those raspberry jelly filled ones are deliciously yummy!

Neon Clear

Plastic surgery is scheduled! May 29, 2008 - ROCK! Yep, the nipping and tucking is about to begin. Step one to complete hotness. Wish me luck that everything goes well.

The Verdict is in...

Diagnosis from testing due to Foot Drop... Peroneal Nerve Palsy.

Definition
Peroneal nerve palsy is a disorder caused by damage to the peroneal nerve, characterized by loss of movement or sensation in the foot and leg.

The peroneal nerve is a branching of the sciatic nerve, which supplies movement and sensation to the lower leg, foot and toes. Common peroneal nerve dysfunction is a type of peripheral neuropathy (damage to nerves outside the brain or spinal cord).

Precious Jackson

Last week I took my cat to the vet, because he just wasn't acting right. They brushed it off as an infection, and sent him home with antibiotics. After the 7 days of forcing him to take the pills, he still wasn't any better. So, off to the vet yet again we go. Only this time, I had no idea I would be leaving without him. After numerous testing and blood work, we finally got a diagnosis. Bone cancer. Ugh! His temperature was 104.8, and you could feel the heat radiating from his head and ears. Poor baby was hurting, and I knew it. What else was there to do? No cure for cancer, it was in his bones and spreading rapidly... So it came down to 2 choices. Let him suffer until he dies on his own, or have him euthanized. I chose the latter. My poor baby Jack was only 3 1/2 years old. Such a good boy.

7/4/2004 - 3/26/2008

Details

So I finally found out was is wrong with my foot. Foot drop, or drop foot, or some crap like that. Basically, a nerve on the top of my foot is paralyzed. Yep, NOT WORKING! So, that is why I can't bend my foot up and I walk like a gimp. Joy! So, next step is to have more testing done to figure out why I have it. It's not a diagnosis, but a symptom of some underlying issue. So either I'm just a freak of nature, have a wigged out nerve somewhere behind my knee, MS, or my favorite, Lou Gehrig's disease. What fun. On a side note, my headlight was only $226 to get fixed, not the $235 I predicted. Hey, 9 bucks is 9 bucks!

Life's Happenings

Just jotting down a few updates on what's been going on lately.
I think my foot should be amputated. For the last week or so, it's been hurting like a bitch on the top right where the foot meets the leg. Ankle pain I could understand, but what the hell is this? I can't bend my toes much at all. It doesn't cause pain to try it, but there is just no strength to do it. Weird indeed.
It's currently that time of the month... ya know, that female thing. Why is it that we just can't be miserable with the issue alone? Noooo, we have to have doubling over cramps to go with it. Midol just doesn't cut it anymore. Blah to the gazillionth power!
I finally got my car back up to par. It's needed some work for awhile that I've just neglected. But now, about $400 later, I'm good to go. Well, except for the headlight that needs new wiring. There goes another $235 tomorrow when I take it to the shop. Joy joy.

Consult

I finally called a plastic surgeon, and scheduled my consult for April 16! Woohoo! I've chosen Dr. Bergman in Carmel, Indiana. There's gonna be a lot of nipping and tucking going on soon. Believe me, if you lost 165 lbs, you'd go under the knife too. I'm gonna be a hot bitch!

I Love...

• When I see my mom smile
• Unexpected phone calls from friends
• Song lyrics that have self meaning
• Remembering good times with my Sister
• Stupid things that remind me of someone
• Seeing another pound lost on the scale
• Intense dreams that you wish were reality
• Anticipating something wonderful
• Having money after the bills are paid
• Alone time when I need it most

For your viewing pleasure

The newest in the "act like an idiot" series. Cheers!

OCD Anyone?

Last night while I was sitting on my bed, I began doing my nightly ritual and realized that it has become an obsession. Well, maybe not obsession, but something similar. When I'm ready to go to bed, I go to my room and change in to my big 'ol t-shirt that I wear to bed. Then comes the ritual. Out comes the body lotion and I use it on my legs, arms, torso, and feet. of course, I make sure my feet are smooth first, because if they aren't.. out comes the foot file. Then it's the face thing. Astringent on a cotton swab cleans my face and neck. Then another type of lotion goes on my face. Teeth whitening strips go on next, and finally the lip moisturizer. I'm addicted to carmex. That is a must! Seems without it, I feel like my lips will dry up and fall off while I'm sleeping. Then I watch tv while laying there until it's time to remove the whitening strip from my teeth. I think I need help.

Curls Be Gone!

Why the hell is it that when you cut your hair dramatically, it curls? For my entire life I've always had very long hair that was completely straight. I recently cut off a foot of it, which of course I regret, and now it wants to curl. Ugh! I want my straight hair back! Time for some extra strength Biotin to get this curly mess to grow faster. If anyone has other ideas, send them my way!

Ok, You Win

I activated the comments setting again for those of you that messaged me. Comment to your hearts content. Cheers!

Addiction at it's Best

Yep, I'm addicted to Carmex. No, I don't have a cold sore or fever blister either. Every night when I go to bed, I put some on my lips. They seem to get so chapped during the night. Must be that damn fan I have on all of the time. Or, maybe I'm just bonkers. Either way, I gotta have it!

You're My Obsession

• Cherry Coke Zero
• Pretzels
• Vicks Vapo-Rub (damn cold)
• Colby Cheese
• Cruise Research
• MySpace
• Nalts
• PerezHilton.com
• 65 degree weather in January
  

Dorky Fun

Yep, I'm bored, so here ya go.. AnnoyingLizard with no makeup, hair pulled back, and not wearing my contacts... Enjoy!

Year of the Baby

Until lately, I've always told myself that I did not want any children. Maybe it's the biological clock ticking, but I've changed my mind. Yup, I think I'm finally ready to grow up. Of course I already have names picked out, or rather, my mom does. She definitely wants to be a grandma. My sister always dreamed of having children, but unfortunately that was cut short with her unexpected passing. She would have been a great mom. Myself, it could go either way. I'm not sure I have those motherly instincts, so I'm hoping they just come naturally when the time comes. So now I just need a sperm donor! lol An AnnoyingLizard spawn coming into the world in 2008. Hopefully.

Da Na Na Na...

na na na na, hey hey hey.. goodbye! Are there went a foot of my hair! Decided it was time for a new do, so I went for it and whacked it all off. Well, not all... it's still a little past my shoulders. Definitely not used to this. I've had long hair for as long as I can remember.

Pain sucks ass

My friggin' shoulder hurts! For a few years now, I've often had a terrible burning pain on the inside of my left shoulder blade. It usually only acted up when I was driving, or doing something stupid. But for the past few weeks, it's non-stop pain. I've tried heat, ice, muscle relaxers, ibuprofen, lortab and percocet with absolutely no relief! Of course I can't get a hold of my doctor because she only works 2 days a week, and when she is there, she's busier than hell. What to do?!?! Egads! I think I need my shoulder whacked off.

I'm all out of blood, I'm so lost without you...

A little Air Supply moment there :) I had my first official blood draw a couple days ago for my surgeon. They took 14 vials of blood! 14!!! As the tech was doing it, she said "I hope you ate something before you came." LOL Of course I didn't because I had to be fasting. I won't know the results until my appointment with Dr. Inman on December 21, or unless something is wrong and I get a phone call. I actually expect one because me and vitamins do not mix well. Ugh! But I've been doing better with them these last few weeks. As of this morning I am down 124 lbs! Woohoo!

As of today...

I've lost 118 lbs!!! I hate that I let myself go for so long, and it's even worse that losing my sister made me care about myself even less. I am so thankful I was given the opportunity to do something about it. I am having wonderful success, but I could use a nice kick in the ass to regarding the carb factor! I know carbs are bad, but they are oooohhh so yummy! Blah!
Thanks to all of my friends that have been there for me, encouraging me, and cheering me on. It is wonderful that I get to talk to my best friend Becky everyday on the phone, and we can compare notes. It's definitely something that helps! If it weren't for you all and my family, I have no doubt I would have had one foot in the grave now.
Life is great and I know my beautiful sister is looking down on me helping me with all of this. Choosing to have the DS was the best decision I ever made.
Cheers!

Loneliness...

...is a bitch

The Name Game

Got this in a MySpace Bulletin.. thought it was cute

1. REAL NAME: Sally
2. GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Salizzle
3. DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal) Orange Frog
4. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name & street you live on) Jo Melbourne
5. STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of last name, first two of first) EwiSa
6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color & favorite drink) Purple Tea
7. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of first name, 3rd letter of last name, 1st letter of middle name, 2nd letter of moms maiden name, 3rd letter of dad's middle name, 1st letter of siblings first name, & last letter of grandpa's first name.) Aijnyse
8. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents middle names) Ruth Ray
9. GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Jack

Hello My Love

Damn I love it when a day turns out good. I mean, aside from this blinding abdominal pain. I woke to a nice thunderstorm, and you all know how great it is to hear one of those while laying in bed. I managed to get in a good hour of swimming inbetween rain showers though. Was very relaxing considering it was a million degrees with 98% humidity. Damn you Great Lakes! Had dinner with my folks, which is always fantastic... my mom definitely knows how to cook. Better add an extra hour of exercise after that fried chicken, mashed potatoes and David Copperfield gravy. I don't know how she makes that gravy, but I swear it's magic. After that I screwed around on the computer for awhile, making my aunt some "vote for me" cards. She's running for President of the Resident Counsel where she lives. I have no idea what that entails, but she's in to it. So finally I decide to go to bed around 3:45am. I always watch television for a bit before going to sleep, so I flipped on the cable box. There he is, my favorite guy, the first image I see on tv, and the first voice I hear. It's about 45 minutes in to The Sixth Day and first thing I hear it "Hello my love." Whoosh! That is 6'5" of pure deliciousness. I just love when a man is taller than me, real life or movieland. I hate being a 6'0" amazon. So anyway, I went to bed watching my fantasy lover, and there's only one thing better than that! The realistic one. Cheers!

25 Celebs + 25 Invites = Party

If you could invite 25 celebrities to a party, who would you choose? It was really hard for me to think of 25... I'd be happy if my number 1 was the only one who showed up! lol

1. Michael Rapaport 2. Weird Al 3. Chris Noth 4. Kathy Griffin 5. Brett Scallions 6. Simon LeBon 7. Eva Mendes 8. Joe Mantegna 9. Matthew Gray Gubler 10. Pauley Perrette 11. David Boreanaz 12. Dave Attell 13. Charisma Carpenter	14. Adam Sandler 15. Kevin Smith 16. Ellen Degeneres 17. Jack Black 18. Mandy Patinkin 19. Mike Rowe 20. Jared Padalecki 21. Victor Garber 22. Will Sasso 23. Val Kilmer 24. Robert Smith 25. Perez Hilton

Vomitus Grossiness

I HATE seafood! Shrimp, lobster, crab, oysters, fish.. ugh! Blech! Doesn't matter how it's cooked either. Fried, boiled, grilled, RAW.. it all makes me want to vomit! My mom is very anti-shellfish, so it's no surprise where I get my distaste for it. She does love her catfish though. Funny thing is that I absolutely love food. I love all kinds of food, and I love to cook, so I watch the Food Network a LOT. Why is it that seafood is included in pretty much every show I see? Shrimp this, shrimp that, YUCK!
Soooo disgusting. I need to pitch a show called Anti-Sea. Now THAT would be a good show. Ok, now it's confession time. There is ONE seafood item I like. but only ONE! Yummy yummy deep fried clams. Of course ya gotta have some tarter sauce with them. Yum-o! So, that is my only sea-like. One out of a gazillion things in the sea to eat, I'd say I'm anti-sea for the most part. Now look at this beauty...

Blah to the 4th power

What the hell makes late night pathetically boring? Sure, I can waste time online researching something I already know, or amuse myself by watching fart videos on YouTube... but come on, it's been done to death. I could look for more things to do on my trip to Los Angeles, but there's only so much I can plan when I'm only going to be there for 5 days. Besides, I already have my short list of celebs I plan on stalking capturing a photo with. Back when I was younger (like I'm old now or something) I was always doing something. Had a boat load of friends, places to go, and always had cash in my pocket. Now I have a couple friends, nowhere to go, and a debit card. Now's the time I think about how pathetic I'm sounding, and refer to what I say to others. Suck it up!

This and That

1. When you looked in the mirror today, what was your first thought? The only mirror I looked in today was the rear view mirror in my car. I was probably looking at the jackass that rode my ass.
2. Fav planet? The Sun is a mass of incandescent gas, a gigantic nuclear furnace
3. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? Doctor's office
4. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone? A View to a Kill by Duran Duran
5. Do you “label” yourself? Absolutely
6. What does your watch look like? Watch?? Oh, you mean my cellphone...
7. What were you doing at midnight last night? Cleaning house
8. What did your last text message you received say? Something from Kathy Griffin
9. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot? "Huh?" My hearing sucks lately.
10. Last furry thing you touched? My precious baby Jack
11. Favorite age you have been so far? 31
12. Your worst enemy? Depends on the day
13. What is your current desktop picture? Vortec Space
14. What was the last thing you said to someone? "Love you too" to my mom
15. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be? The cash of course. I'd buy some wings with it.
16. Are you in love with someone? For what seems like the first time ever... Not at all
17. The last song you listened to? Tori Amos - Silent All These Years
18. What time of day were you born? I dunno, a little after 8pm
19. What's your favorite food? Homemade Tostadas - Yum-O!
20. Where did you live in 1984? About 50 yards from where I live now
21. Are you jealous of anyone? Anybody that has more money than me
22. Is anyone jealous of you? Bwahahaha! uh, no
23. Where were you when 9/11 happened? In class where I enjoyed my professor Dr. Neal Haskell throw a ballistic fit! I love that man. Google him, he's a world renowned Entomologist.
24. Do you consider yourself kind? Eh, 50/50
25. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? I have 4 now, but I guess I'd could go for one on the top of my foot
26. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? Spanish, but only so I could tell people around here to LEARN ENGLISH! ugh!
27. Would you move for the person you loved? Almost did once. Thank God that didn't happen. Wouldn't even consider it now.
28. What's your life motto? Suck it up
29. What's your favorite town/city? Dallas
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it? Month ago I responded to my deadbeat cousin. He's in prison of course. Loser
31. Can you change the oil on a car? Nope
32. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her? No clue
33. Do you collect anything? Carebears, Frogs and Russ Trolls
34. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy? My sisters wedding in 1995. I wore this awful gold looking thing. She loved it. I'd wear it everyday if it would bring her back.
35. Have you been burned by love? Yup

Guilty Pleasures: Movie version

10 Movies that are absolutely ridiculous, but I still think they rock!

Welcome to the Dollhouse Ella Enchanted Fast Food Can’t Buy Me Love Strange Brew

Slums of Beverly Hills Empire Records Orgazmo Top Secret Evil Dead II

All about ME

1. Were you named after anyone? Character on a tv show
2. When was the last time you cried? 2 days ago
3. Do you like your handwriting? Dunno, it never looks the same
4. What is your favorite lunch meat? Smoked Turkey
5. Do you have kids? Nope
6. If you were another person, would you be friends with u? Prolly not
7. Do you use sarcasm a lot? yup
8. Do you still have your tonsils? nope
9. Would you bungee jump? already have.. NEVER again
10. What is your favorite cereal? honey nut cheerios
11. Do you untie your shoes to take them off? n/a I wear wedges
12. Do you think you are strong? hell yeah!
13. What is your favorite ice cream? lime sherbet
14. What is the first thing you notice about people? teeth
15. Red or pink? neither
16. What is the least favorite thing about yourself? everything
17. Who do you miss the most? My sister :(
18. Do you want everyone to send this back to you? of course!
19. What color pants and shoes are wearing? navy, black
20. What was the last thing you ate? Wheat bagel w/cream cheese
21. What are you listening to right now? CSI Miami
22. If you were a crayon ...what color would you be? orange
23. Favorite smells? Softsoap, Gain laundry soap
24. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Becky
25. Do you like the person who sent this to you? absolutely!
26. Favorite sports to watch? Baseball
27. Hair color? Does calico work for humans too?
28. Eye color? Blue
29. Do you wear contacts? sometimes
30. You favorite food? good question!
31. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings, BUT.. the Seinfeld finale was awesome
32. Last movie you watched? Bourne Supremacy
33. What color shirt are you wearing: Navy blue
34. Summer or winter? Fall
35. Hugs or kisses? Those my only choices? both
36. Favorite dessert? yuck
37. What book are you reading right now? Demon Within (again)
38. What's on your mouse pad? Some 60's retro design
39. What did you watch on TV last night? First 48
40. Favorite sound? Wind passing the trees
41. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Neither
42. Furthest you have been from home? Seattle
43. Have a special talent? I can do this thing with my finger joints
44. Where you were born? Lafayette, IN
45. Whose answers do you look forward to? humm... dunno

Walk of Fame

In honor of the lucky 7's, I have received a star. Ok, I gave it to myself... but hey, you don't have one :) Nothing exciting happened on this supposed day of luck. I didn't meet the man of my dreams, I didn't receive any unexpected gifts, and I didn't win the lottery. Well, the lottery one might be my fault... I didn't play. Really the only thing out of the ordinary I did today was try to think of a tattoo to get in Hollywood. I want one that symbolizes my mom (she rocks), but the only thing I can think of getting is a garlic clove or an olive. If both of those didn't exist, she wouldn't eat. So, any ideas? No rush, I won't be in CA until September.

Odd & Ends

Greetings from the Hoosier state! I don't really have one topic to delve into today, so I'm just going to touch on a few basics.

• Early this morning I bought my plane ticket for my vacation in September. Originally I was going to fly into Santa Ana, but instead I'll be dealing with LAX. That'll be a trip in itself I'm sure. The latter part of the trip will be spent in Hollywood, so it will be easier to deal with than traveling back to John Wayne airport. Woohoo!


• Normally I have excellent dreams, but not last night. I had 3 different terrible ones! The last one was the worst. I was trapped in a room, where there was a speaker and video camera. Someone on the other end wouldn't let me leave, and if I tried to open the door, the fire alarm went off. Hey, it was scary when I was dreaming it! lol People kept knocking on the door and I'd tell them what was happening, and they thought I was joking! Finally some dude helped me out. Love ensued, but I have no idea who this guy was. I remember the face, and it's not one I've seen before.

• Lastly, G.W. Bush! WTF is he doing? Bailing his friends out of trouble again. Yup, the elusive "Scooter" Libby had his prison sentence wiped clean by the one and only loser of the free world. Seems we need to rethink calling the US a "free world." It's taken a bit too literally.

I'm a pretty little heiress

I spend money all day long and worry about nothing. I'm a spender by day, and a socialite at night. Nothing can be better than this. *wake up* Back to reality! I'm a broke ass that doesn't go anywhere. But I have great friends and an amazing family. Life is good.

Another day, another dollar

Greetings friends. Well, another birthday down. Today I'm 34. I received many well wishes and some amazing gifts from family and friends. My friend Haven made me this awesome birthday card.She definitely rocks. She also made one for Michelle (Eggface Chronicles) who shares the same birthdate. How cool is that? Today has been a good day. A rainy one, but good. I sooo can't wait for our vacation in Los Angeles. Not much longer! Woohoo!! Tomorrow night my mom and I are going to too see "Sicko" - should be excellent. Cheers!

You're My Obsession

I'm totally stealing this post idea from my friend Michelle. She tells her current thoughts, obsessions, what she's listening too, etc... So, I figure I'd do a little of the same. So here are my current obsessions...

• This damn incision opening!
• Losing MORE weight
• Watching OHTV videos
• Waiting for the pool water to warm
• Planning things to do in CA
• Crystal Light lemonade
• Vitamins & Supplements - blah!
• The big freakin’ mosquito bite on my foot!
• Missing my sister terribly :(
• Dry. Hands. Need. Lotion.

That's all just today! If I had to type out every little thing I'm having an issue with, I'd have to buy more web hosting space! Oh, and by the way, I'm currently watching Most Haunted.

Missed me didn't ya??

Greetings again from the Hoosier state. I'm finally back after being on hiatus for several weeks. I had my surgery on May 22, 8 days sooner than scheduled. Everything went well, but the recovery has been quite an interesting ride. Every day is better than the one before though, woohoo for that. My first official post-op doctor appointment is June 7. We'll know how it's going after that one.
I can't believe it's June already! FYI, my birthday is June 28, so mark your calendars! How old? 34 baby! It's time for swimming season, so as soon as the rain decides to subside, I'll be outside getting the pool filled and ready to go! Swimming is great exercise ya know, especially since I'll be able to do some laps.
I also need to start the family reunion planning. It's set for July 22. I've handled it every year, so just because I had surgery doesn't make this year any different. I've decided to change up the menu this year, and go for fried chicken instead of the usual hamburgers and hotdogs. The theme will probably just be red/white/blue. I've done luau, 50's, and everything sparkly themes so far. Decorations can and DO get expensive, especially since I pay for everything. It's worth it in the end. Lots of family, and meeting some for the first time.
That's it for now, nothing else to report. No decent dreams to speak of lately. Chris Noth still rocks me though. Ciao!

Wowsa

I had a complete blast in California with all my friends. The first night we went to a karaoke bar called "Durty Nellys" and it was absolutely hilarious! I never knew Kim could sing like that! She rocked the house. Woohoo! The Crowne Plaza hotel was immaculate, and I certainly didn't want to come home. Even the room service was superb! Of course, it cost me $12 to watch a movie. Go figure lol